Wednesday, December 31, 2008
I've been living a very unhealthy lifestyle the past 3-4 weeks. Eating poorly every day, binging on junk food nearly every day, and barely working out. I've started hiding how much/what I eat from my family and friends, and I've spent a few evenings hiding out at home when I could have been hanging out/working out with friends. I have people counting on me to be a strong,positive role model for them and I'm blowing it, big time.
I know I'm an emotional binge eater but I've reached the place tonight where I have to honestly grab myself by the shoulders, shake myself until my teeth rattle, and tell myself "enough is enough!". No more excuses...if I binge now and then, it may be because I'm having a really bad day, but binging every single day and not working out routinely for weeks is a lifestyle choice, not a bad day.
So with brutal honesty, I changed my weight loss ticker to reflect the 8 pounds I've put back on in the past month, and let me tell you, THAT REALLY HURT! I've also changed my goal weight from 160 to 153 pounds.
So it's time to quit whining and time to start fighting. Because if I continue like this, I'll end up depressed, fat and miserable again!