Last night was so hard. My problem happen when i was on sparkspeople so long and forgot the time. lol The next thing I know its 8pm. Well today I know i wont do that. I got so hungary. I just imagine myself fasting and i knew i wasn't going to die, even though I felt like it. I read that it gets easier. I hope it gets easier this week. I knew this would be my biggest challenge. i was nervous about doing it. that's when i knew I needed to do it. I read in a book that you know you need to change when you are scared of a new challenge. That's the challenge you need to take. I know I can do it. After the 30 days are complete i am going to reward myself with a real prize. I need to think of something. I got 29 more days to think of it and I know I got time after 8pm to do it. lol. If anyone have any ideas let me know of a good reward for myself.

Last night I laying the bed with my husband. He ask me what was I thinking. I told him about losing the weight. He said I think you are pretty just the way you are now. I asked him seriously how much do he think I should lose he said about 25 pounds. He said I don't want you to get too skinny. He said if you were skinny when I met you I would not have been attracted to you. I like a woman with meat on her bones. I really wanted to lose 50 pounds. after he said that I didn't say anything. Hay that's good to know so when I am half way there I know he's happy. that takes the pressure off of me. I need to get a pair of scales. I may not need to lose 50 pounds. I am just guessing at 50. I am going to get some scales tomorrow i hope. I exercise today. Afterward i really felt good. It was like someone gave me a shot in the arm. I am going to start exercising in the morning. so it won't be looming over my head the rest of the day.