Tuesday, December 23, 2008
I know everyone has there own obstacles in life but I'm getting so peeved.
My Ex. gave me $50 for a bed for my son like that's going to buy him one.
Found out today that he took our engagement ring he promised to give me since I wanted to save it for our son and tore it to pieces to make a new one for his new GF.
He took the ring and spent $1,000 to make a new ring with the pieces from mine for her and $500 on a dress. But tells me he has no money for his own son.
After arguing with him all morning he finally agreed to let me order a dresser, nightstand, toy box and bookshelf online for our son, but now the credit card won't go threw since he never buys anything online. It finally went threw but he put the wrong address and had to cancel it. Now he wants me to order it but his credit card won't work again. I don't see why he can't just send me a check but he complains if he does he has no proof I'm spending it on my son. My son needs things I'm tired of feeling like he's being punished because his dad wants to be a deadbeat when he's mad at me. When he does help he gives the minimum effort he can then gets upset with me. We broke up 8 months ago and has sent me one check for $50 for the bed and $100 for cloths which he wants me to pay him back. Seriously is this to much to ask? My son has been sleeping in the bed with me. He's to big for this and deserves to have his own stuff.
I'm stuck again with my weight so it's getting on my nerves.
I'm unemployed and am broke. I worked from June - August and got fired and since I've been a stay at home mom for 4 years no one wants to give me a chance!
Mike is threatening if I go after child support he will take my son away from me. He takes care of his new GF's son but wants nothing to do with his own. Only wants him because he feels he shouldn't have to help me sense Anakin isn't with him.
I have a major headache from the stress and found all this out today and I just feel like I'm going crazy. Non stop yelling at my son (he's driving me crazy with his screaming and not listening but he's autistic I know I have to be patient but I'm in such a bad mood)
I can't stop crying all day knowing what Mike did to my ring since he knew how special it is to me. I'm just so frustrated with everything. I think I'm losing it and all I want to do is binge eat, and I know the minute I touch food there is no stopping me so I'm starving since I haven't eaten anything.
He tells me he loves me when he's argueing with her and wants to fix things with me but when she's around does nothing but yell at me and makes me cry or wants nothing to do with me.
I feel like such a loser because I couldn't even afford to buy my son a single present but my family is helping and each bought him presents since they know I am struggling.
PLEASE SOMEONE GIVE ME HOPE!!! Just a little that's all I need.