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    RAYLINSTEPHENS   242,748
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The difference in me...

Saturday, December 20, 2008

I'm fat and have been fat since I was about 8-10 years of age. Ok, so I am not so fat anymore, but I am still fat. I have a mirror and I am not afraid to use it.

Mentally I accepted myself almost 20 years ago. I learned through OA that I am ok. My shell is XL but I am ok and worthy of being loved. I had a glorious 20 years of eating whatever I wanted and feeling free! I quit worrying about the scale and I can tell you the joys and pitfalls of overindulging in just about any food you can think of. Cans of chocolate covered nuts? I can tell you about it. I can even discriminate the different brands of chocolate! Would I give that up if I had the chance to do it all again? Heavens, I think not!

I am 57, was 56 when I came back to SP ready for a change. Why? Did I no longer accept myself? Again, heavens no! There was and is nothing wrong with me; there is just more of me. So why this sudden urge to drop this extra baggage? Drugs. Medicines. Prescriptions.

I am the youngest in my family (ok, brother is but he's a boy). Everyone else in the family is on some form of medication - most are on more than one prescription. I am on nothing! Nada! Zilch!! And I desire to keep it this way.

I woke up March 27, 2008 at my all-time high weight of 210. I tried the tricks I know to use to get below 200 again and nothing worked this time! Time to count calories. I remembered joining SP 2 years back and found I never quit - I just left. So this time I got with the program. It took time just learning how to change the weight from 205 to the 210 I now was, but learn I have. It still took me 2 months before I switched from my own log to the Nutrition Tracker and "let go and let SP" be in charge of me. The rest is history.

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* this is what got me into The Spark - page 39 - they liked my "let go and let SP" be in charge! *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

If I can do it, anyone can do it. If there is one thing I have learned in my life it is that I am "terribly average" when it comes to things like this. The only difference I can see is the level of commitment. Some folks just haven't reached this level yet but when they do, they will get with their programs too.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
JENIFIREHARP 12/21/2008 8:56PM

    LOL Average is not a word would ever use to describe you Linda, not in a million years! You are very very extraordinary, amazing, and special, and definitely a spark success! I enjoy your blogs and your posts. I enjoy your friendship. I am amazed at how helpful you are... should I go on? Yeah, I am quite proud of you!

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BONMACK 12/20/2008 11:25PM

    I always smile when I see your profile pic! I think it's pretty awesome,really! YOU GO GIRL! You're just a real motivation to ALL of us! emoticon

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PEACHYLADY 12/20/2008 6:59PM

    You look great in that picture! WTG!

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TABBYKAT75 12/20/2008 6:45PM

    You are such an inspiration !

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SUPREME5 12/20/2008 1:21PM

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DINA:-) 12/20/2008 11:41AM

    well, isn't everyone "average"? besides being average you are a huge inspiration to so many of us- and that makes it all the better- because we are all average, just like you :) so if you can do it so can i!

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MARTY19 12/20/2008 9:58AM

    Linda you are by no means "average" Your level of committment is higher than most. Your positive outlook and ability to change what needs to be changed motivates and encourages all of us fortunate to know and be around you.
For some people, making excuses is a way of life. SP teaches us to accept responsibility for what we do and to change it. You did that and you are a MAJOR success.
I'm thrilled you came into my life.


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CRTSANG 12/20/2008 9:01AM

    You may be "terribly average" in a lot of things, but your attitude is extraordinary. So is the way you help so many of us to stay focused and positive. Love those red shorts and I look forward to seeing the goal you!


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MOB8/2009 12/20/2008 7:37AM

    What a journey you have been on and what an inspiration you are! I love that phrase "terribly average", but I don't see you as AVERAGE at all! You are above average in committment, you are in the excellent range on friendships and support, and you are off the scale in how you look in those red shorts!!!! **gasp* Do I see a waist there? An hour glass figure? Yes, indeed!!!! WAY TO GO, GIRLFRIEND!

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