i should be happy now!!
Tuesday, December 09, 2008
ok well i did it!! i got to the weight i wanted to be at before i left to go back home!! so i should be happy right?? well i am not. i tell myself aw you are just having one of those fat days. its just the clothes your a wearing don't show your figure very well, you will be back to feeling great tomorrow. WRONG tomorrow came around and i had different clothes on and i still didnt like what i saw.
I look at my legs like especially today and im scared because they look like they did when I first got here, like ive lost no weight at all. but i check the scales and it hasnt gone up. i get compliments alot about how great I look but I dont see any difference.
i am at what they call a "healthy weight" now but to me i dont feel skinny.
i want to feel good and i want to have the confidence... i guess its something i have to work on.... aw well