Monday, December 08, 2008
Well, at the risk of offending anyone who's not the "religious type," I'd like to share something I heard at church today. It was God and faith-oriented, of course, but it was a great message even for those who are not necessarily "church goers." So here it is:
Today the message was about deliverance. (I know; How ironic, right? LOL) Anyway, the point of the message was how, as believers, we have the power to overcome what binds us. The word "live" is in deLIVErance, and you can't have one without the other. I'm going to try to make a long story short by just sharing how the speaker was talking about Satan always growing stronger in our weaknesses, thereby being able to continually hold us back. As long as we allow it, he is there stride by stride with us, keeping us captive to what we want more than the freedom that God has given us. The key words that struck me during this scenario, was when he said we need to reach out to our helper and our strength and let Him give us a "second wind" to pull ahead and leave Satan (or the temptation) behind us.
Isn't that just what we talk about when referring to refocusing? When we talk about needing to get our motivation back, isn't that what we're looking for? The "Second Wind" we need to leave the temptation in the dust?
I have to confess that I have let myself slip this week (big time!) My partner and I have decided together to stop putting so much pressure on ourselves, because it was getting too stressful to make the right choices, and too depressing when those choices didn't pay off. Rest assured that even though we agreed to take a little "pause" until the new year, we were still determined to continue making good choices and working hard... just not letting it control or consume us. Well I am guilty of letting that little ease of pressure become my undoing this week. I "rested" a little too much and made some very bad choices. In essence, I let my guard down and ended up reverting back to my old ways.
Another thing the speaker said that hit home with me was about avoiding those temptations that always make us feel like failures. For an example, if you're swimming in debt, don't go to the shopping mall. If you're controlled by pornography, don't be in the computer room alone late at night, etc. All I kept repeating to myself was "If you're addicted to food, stay out of the kitchen!"
I am going to try to keep this message with me until I have won this war once and for all. The preacher assured us that the better days are ahead of us, if we just let ourselves be open to them. We've got to let our help (whatever that may be for each of you) HELP us! The bible says that there will be temptation in this world, but it also says that when there is temptation, HE will provide a way out! He will lead us from it! Now as a believer, that help to me is the Lord. But for those of you who aren't quite there yet, what is your help? What is it that assists you up out of that stronghold? Where do you get YOUR second wind? Wherever it is, or whatever your help may be, you've got to dig deep and let it do its job!
Now I don't profess to be perfect, not by a long shot! And I'm not saying that one great church service has "healed" me. But I can tell you that I am going to try my hardest to accept that help that is so freely given to me in times of need. Yes, I'm still on "pause" right now, because I feel I need to be. This change in lifestyle has consumed me to the point that all I think about is food or calories or fat grams or what I have to do to burn how much, yadda, yadda, yadda. I've gotten to the point where I feel as though my brain is fried, and yet all this hard work that I think I'm doing is not producing the results that I think it should. This is NOT the lifestyle that God wants for me. Even if I were the perfect dieter who never made mistakes, and even if I lost 100 pounds by living that way, I don't think I would be completely happy. Why? Because I still wouldn't have freedom. All I would have is a different stronghold to replace the first one that was holding me captive for all these years. I know that God wants more for me.
I don't have all the answers, and I don't know where I'm going to go from here. But I've made it my goal for 2009 to find out how I got here in the first place, so I can be set free. I don't want to just put a band-aid on the symptoms until I reach my goal weight. I want to find the freedom that has been promised to me as a child of God. I want to release the stronghold so that my body isn't the only thing getting lighter as the weight comes off.
I don't know if this has helped anyone, or if it even interested anyone. But I felt better getting it out, and I intend to continue this "saga" in my blogging so I can keep track of where I've been and where I'm going.
Thanks for listening,