Wednesday, December 03, 2008
I gave up. I fell off the wagon. All though I have not gained anything, I am feel like I am stuck in a great big FAT rut.
My car was stolen, so I had to stop going to the gym, but not once did I go out to walk. I now have a vehicle and still sitting on my big ole butt.
I feel so disappointed in myself, because I just can't get myself motivated to change my ways. I have never been so big in my life (not even during any one of my 3 pregnancies). I am very uncomfortable, and have all but stopped looking in the mirror at myself. I don't know what to do to get myself back on track.
My mom has done such a wonderful job, and she keeps losing. Even that doesn't motivate me.
I watch the Biggest Loser and the great success everyone has and still I sit.
I need help. I need motivation. I need HELP!!!!! I don't want to be this big, but I am too lazy to get up and move. I don't know what is wrong or why I can't or won't do it, all I know is that I so very unhappy with myself and my appearance. But still that doesn't even get me going.
I am at a major dead end with no room to turn around.