Monday, November 24, 2008
Yeah, that's me. I feel grumpy. And because I feel grumpy, I'm sick of Spark People. I'm sick of worrying about my food. I'm sick of going to track my dinner calories before I decide whether or not I can have something small for dessert. I feel a bit sad, and I just want to eat. I don't want to change my lifestyle. I don't want to be healthy. Tonight, I just want to be bad, have cake, or an ice cream sundae, or some of the (still) leftover Halloween candy, and not care.
But I won't. Because I do care. The guilt kicks in before I even go there... I guess that's that thing that Coach Dean calls my "healthy lifestyle conscience". I guess this really is a lifestyle change... and some days, that's whether I like it or not.