Tuesday, November 18, 2008
This past month has been a frustrating one. I was doing SO well there for a while, working out every day and watching my diet closely. I dropped 9 pounds, almost halfway to my goal! But then I went to a friend's party, had a little too much to drink, and pigged on at the appetizer table. Ever since then, it's been a downward spiral and I've been eating like it's going out of style.
I hate that it's either all or nothing with me when it comes to my health. When given the slightest opportunity, my old, deeply ingrained eating habits resurface and I throw myself completely off-course. I just wish that I could forget forever what some foods taste like! That would make things so much easier. (And I'm not the type to be able to have just one cookie or one piece of pizza. One piece turns into a whole pie for me)
I'm not trying to beat myself up about this by any means. I'm just struggling with the question right now: How do I find a balance between being completely in control of every single calorie, and having no control at all? That's what I guess I'm hoping to find here (hopefully sooner than later!