Sunday, November 16, 2008
I believe that anyone can conquer fear by doing the things he fears to do, provided he keeps doing them until he gets a record of successful experiences behind him.
- Eleanor Roosevelt
I sang in church today, and I did beautifully! I figured out this week that the scratchy voice was due to low humidity in my house. We set up the humidifier and this morning I drank some hot green tea with breakfast. Right before singing I had a cough drop. I read somewhere that the sugar in those does something to help with a singer's vocal cords and is safer than throat spray. I was very nervous as I rang the church bells, but I was not singing alone. I was up there with my sister.
Now for those that don't know, being a cantor or a music minister in my church means leading all the chants and songs and hymns, and being Catholic, we have several of those!!!
Now, I never wanted to sing in front of church. I don't consider myself overly "talented" in the whole musical department. I can sing in tune. I can read music. I can sort of play the piano. I like to sing in the shower. But I did not volunteer to be a cantor! So how did I end up in front of 80 or more people singing a beautiful Irish hymn today among 7 other songs?
How does any of this volunteer stuff happen LOL? This started with my sister. She likes to sing. She has been in choir every year she possibly could. She sings everywhere in our house. She has a beautiful voice. But she never sang alone in front of a crowd. So one day at Sunday School the teacher mentioned that all 8th graders had to take a part of this one church service. She volunteered to sing. Next thing I know I am bringing her to practice twice that week. She sang with a adult mentor in front of church. She didn't sing loud enough, but she sang. She did well enough that she was asked to sing again. So she said Maybe. But she sang again. Then an emergency came up and they asked her to sing. She sang with the organist that Sunday. All this time I am taking her to practice. Most of the time I was learning the songs right along with her. They heard me sing. We were asked if we were willing to sing twice a month, seeing as how another singer had quit... So next thing I know I am in training to be a cantor at church. Last weekend I had to sing I had done fine all week in practice, but that Sunday I was only able to sing a little, I had lost my high voice.
Today I was nervous... and my voice cracked during warm up. My sis was so nervous I couldn't hear her. So I drank some water and ate that cough drop. And I prayed. "God let me use my talent to the best of my ability. Let me be a vessel for your songs!" And when I sang, every note was clear, every word was heard! And my sis sang so everyone could hear her. We sounded great!
I was so proud of myself. But would I have asked for this position? No way! And would I have agreed at all last year at this time? No way! I know that my self confidence gets stronger and stronger with every accomplishment. BUT I still have to give myself a pep talk before and after I do anything like this... (Why else would I be sharing this story LOL?)