Saturday, October 25, 2008
Today, I am officially out of the 180s - something I never dared dream of before. I think everyone going through this process has learned so much about themselves. For me, always being a fat girl, it's amazing to see myself go through this transformation. I am becoming things I always wanted to be, but never could because "that's just not me". I am now one of those people I used to look at here and wish I was down to their weight. At 215, I would've done anything in the world to get to 177 (where I'm at now).
This morning after I weighed myself, I looked into the mirror. Big accomplishment there as I've always hated looking at myself naked. And what I saw astonished me. It's hard to explain, but I'll try. Many of you probably already understand this. From the side, I can see where most of the fat is on my mid-section, and can see the bottom rib just enough to see how thin I'd be if there was no fat on my tummy (or back).
I really can't wait to see what my body looks like once that fat is gone. My main goal is to be healthy, but for someone who's never been thin, it's like a guessing game of how thin my body will settle at, what size pants will I wear, etc.
The real me has been trapped under all this fat for... well, my whole life really. She's breaking out now. And I can't wait to see what she looks like.