Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Everyone is doing so good at losing weight on my team! I may be a good cheerleader, but I have been failing miserably to follow my own advice. The good thing is that I have not gained any weight.
I have to get back to the basics again. I am drinking more water than I have ever in my life. But I have forgotten all about doing any DD. I know that is not good, and especially if I'm trying to lose weight.
School on MW is the perfect time for me to drink lots of water and make it a DD but I always break down and eat something I shouldn't. T,Th and F I work 12 hours and usually go to the cafeteria and eat some lunch. My choices are a little more healthier because my friends are all dieting too.
Lately I have become the expert in making up excuses as to why I can't do things. Can't do math well and cant use a tutor because I'm too busy and they don't understand my way of thinking. I can't do a DD because ???
I need to Stop this Insanity and get control of my life back! I am the one in control, not food, not my petty excuses. This is not a hard diet to follow, I don't need to go without for ever just one day. I need to get control over this so that the rest will start to fall into place.
The rest is my self esteem as far as my body image is concerned. Not hide from the cameras or feel like crying ever time I see myself in a picture.
I may never get my old body back and I understand that. But I do want to look good for my age. I know that can happen. But it won't happen by itself. I need to work at it.
I need to do this. The magic word here is I.
I can do this.
I want to do this.
I need to do this.
I need to stop making excuses.
I will be a happier person.
I will work at this.
I WILL SUCCEED!
See, it's all boiling down to I. Me. Yo. Ich. Doesn't matter the language, it's still the same.