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What NOT to wear!

Thursday, October 16, 2008

I refused to buy a Size 16. I wasn't going to do it. To buy them would be admitting to the fact that I was indeed FAT. So, I would squeeze myself into the size 14 and pray that nothing popped or ripped. Luckily, we avoided any major catastrophes! I would lose 5 pounds and go out with my hubby and man oh man, did I think I looked hot! Then I would drink and eat back the 5 pounds I lost and the next day look at the pictures of the evening and think to myself...WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU THINKING WEARING THAT! I never thought twice about what I was putting on, I looked good! HA!

This morning I was getting dressed for work and I changed my pants 3 times! My size 12 are falling off if I don't wear a belt but I think the size 10 make my muffin top want to come out becaue it knows that it won't be around for very much longer! Nothing seems to be working right now, and I just don't feel like going and buying clothes. My mom's closet is working just fine for me. It is an ugly viscous cycle! I was so unaware no it wasn't that I was unaware, I didn't want to admit that my body wasn't where it was supposed to be! It was easier to mask the pain with this fake smile attached to my face! We were watching tv the other day and my husband said, that is how your back used to look. I look up and this woman has rolls on her back! So of course I screamed, YOU ARE JUST NOW TELLING ME! His response (such a man) "But it doesn't look like that anymore!" Really! Thanks for the update! You could have shared that info with me sooner! I think he feels it safe to now point out all the things about me that HAVE changed.
I am going back to work now ok I am not going back to work Facebook is calling! HA!
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    I tried to put on a pair of capris for church on Sunday that were a size 12 and they were falling off me and too baggy to wear. It's definitely a problem that is nice to have!
    3265 days ago
  • -AMANDA79-
    Keep it up and your going to need a smaller belt!
    3265 days ago
    hehe facebook is such a timesuck!

    when you do get around to buying new clothes, just think how fun it's going to be!
    3265 days ago
    I feel your pants pain, and I want you to know that I'm there with you. Except I'm busy being thrilled that size 14 fits. My hips are just too unbelievable--I believe that the smallest possible size that will go on them will be a 12. Maybe. (This is a challenge to my hips...)

    You, on the other hand, are less gifted in that area, lucky you. And now you're less gifted on your back, too, I guess.

    Here's to un=-giftedness!

    3265 days ago
    Loved the blog!! Girl, i can feel u on people telling u stuff after the fact. My BF told me something like that similar about my back and I said the same thing u said. Only he said, babe I didn't notice. LOL Is that true luv or a cop out?!?
    3265 days ago
    You've got to love husbands. I cut and highlighted my hair yesterday and mine did not even notice until his brother said something today! LOL

    3266 days ago
    LOL - Can I have your husband. Mine tells me to my face that I need to get in shape. Now don't think harshly about him, I do the same thing to him. Ifigure when we can tell each stuff like that without getting in a fight the other one already knows it and it is just a emoticon in the butt. emoticon
    Congrats on beating the back rolls.
    3266 days ago
    LOL I know the feeling about refusing to buy a size up, because that would be admitting that you need it. I WILL NOT go buy any more pants until I need a size less - or maybe 2. I have a belt, and I know how to use it!

    Congratulations on being DONE with the back rolls!
    3266 days ago
    How funny! I think all husbands say the same thing. lol WTG on the loss!
    3266 days ago
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