Finally I know what is wrong with me
Monday, October 13, 2008
According to an article I read in the newspaper last week, I am suffering from burn out. I can't get this off of my mind. It just explains so much about the way I have been feeling and acting for the past couple of years!
Funny, I have always used this term without really understanding what it means to be burned out. I have all of the classic symptoms. You'd think a church assistant administrator would have a pretty easy, low stress job -- sadly, this is not the case. The responsibilities are huge, everyone expects you to know everything, do everything, be everywhere because you are a "paid" employee instead of just a parishioner, the pay is low, the overtime hours are many, the time off is minimal. I can't even attend a worship service without being accosted and asked questions and solve problems!
But while I have all of the symptoms of burn out, I don't know how to get rid of it. I have got to get my life back somehow. I don't want to quit my job, but it may have to come to that. But we need the money, and at my age, starting over in another job would be difficult. It's an endless treadmill of despair!
I must do more research on what I can do to combat this!