wow its been forever since i posted a blog right. well i haven't really done anything to post about but i will try to post every monday from now on. well first off jess had the second half of his block leave. we sat at home most of the time and did nothing. he did go to the gym with me a few times. however he didn't take the classes i take so it was kinda like he wasn't there. oh and i decided to take karate classes. probably wont start till the new year. but hopefully it will help my self esteem. i have lost a little over 20 pounds and don't feel any different. i still feel like a fat cow. i know some people would say i wasn't a fat cow to start with but that's how i feel. however last night i was about to take a shower and looked in the mirror and thought "wow maybe i do look different" i still got lots of work to do to get the look i want but i will get there. oh and of course hubby finally came around and decided its time for another baby. so that's good and bad at the same time. good cause i want another baby. i love babies. bad cause i an doing all this work to get skinny and then its gonna get all stretched out again. but this time i will be working out while preggers (when ever that happens) unlike last time where i laid in bed with LOTS of chocolate covered doughnuts and pineapples. so jess is leaving next month and i am gonna focus on myself so when he gets back i will be back to my old confidant self. and ready to make babies. well that's all for now. will post again next monday.

Hobby ho............by the way hobby ho is from my favorite book series called "pendragon" hobby ho is how they say hello and goodbye on cloral. i guess you gotta read the book to get it. but that's how i type good bye alot now.