Sunday, October 05, 2008
I haven't been real honest with myself, among other things, this past summer--up to the present. I have been gaining back all the progress I have made this past year and blaming it on stress and lack of time in my schedule (which has been true). But when I reflected on what I WAS doing when I was LOSING, I found an interesting discovery: here is the gist of it. I used to log my food, I used to walk or do strength exercises 4 out of 7 days, I used to eat more fruits/veggies than carbs/meat, I used to drink at least 80oz. of water daily, I used to NOT eat fast food or restaurant food more than once a week, I used to see progress with my weight loss!!
I lost all the GOOD habits I gained in the beginning of my weight loss and thought I could still do it. How ridiculous is that?! I don't really know how to get myself back to it, it's much harder now that I have been through it, I feel like a failure but I don't want to leave it at that. I have "re-committed" several times but not stuck to it so I am confused on what to do but realize I need to get back on track. It's a struggle in my head cuz I feel like I can't give up (whatever) but on the flip side I feel like I don't need this (whatever). So, I am still here, wanting to continue but struggling to make it work. Maybe you have felt this way at some point and can offer me some help!