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Today Was a Very Bad Day

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Today was a very bad day, and this may not be the most appropriate place to share, but there is an element of my story that is relevant to SP. In my job I carry a beeper in the hospital and respond to anyone who pages me for assistance with various things. Tonight I received a page from our ER that they were in the middle of a "code" (yes, it means what you see on TV) and needed me to help keep an eye on the rest of the ER. When I arrived, I found out that the patient who was in full arrest was an 8 year old child that I had known from the hospital since he was an infant (he had many health problems), and he didn't make it. My heart is so heavy even writing about it, so I ask anyone reading this to say a little prayer or send a comforting thought out to this child's family.
The part that is relevant to SP is that after things were settled, I had this
incredible desire to eat and eat and eat just to cope (can anyone say "emotional eater"?). However, I was able to think about how much I've learned on SparkPeople and I resisted that urge. I also thought about the wonderful support that I've seen Sparkers give to one another and thought that maybe this could be a place that I could share this heartbreak. Now that I've written this and re-read it, it seems so trite that I would even think about my goals at a time like this. However, it's been comforting for me to even write this and I hope that you'll indulge me in it.
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  • SLIMMER150
    Hi, You do have a stressful job..and that is a reason. So today you realized an old habit of that stress..and you also realize you have changed..maybe not completely passed these types of moments all the time, but you know what they do to you. I talk to Criminals all day long..of course they never did anything and they are always right. Sometimes they treat me like dirt..if they don't curse I will continue to try and help them, but they yell and blame and gee can't even think what all now..but it's bad. Times I get off the phone and just cry...cause why do they have to do that to me....why do I have to put up with this.. I don't think I go for the food, but maybe a Pepsi and it bums me out through the night many times..which probably effects my food habit...but I don't pig out any more where I too might have tried to drown my emotions with food...we are learning...and noticing these changes are milestones in our success...thanks for writing...it did remind me... that I have changed too.
    3344 days ago
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