Friday, September 19, 2008

Sad to say but I am having to start over again with my commitment to SP. I was doing so good and then I got sick again. Between the emotional eating and the meds I was on I had gained a little bit of weight back, not much but a little bit. AND then the hurricanes hit!!!! OMG between Gustav and Ike-- all I did was eat!!! My kids had to come home (they live in Lafayette and Hammond) and brought an extra one with them (not that I minded that at all) but I have to cook more or we eat out more when they are home. Combine that with the fact that I lost one job due to my health and on the same day, lost one of my other jobs due to the massive flooding; I still have no idea when I can go back to that job. Then my doctor and my parents think I should apply for disability!!!! I am at wit's end! I am only 41 and do not want to be on disability but my body is revolting against me.
I am currently being tested to see if I have MS. The other day at my doctor's appointment-- she pointed out that I have the Lupus mask. I am already having migraines that do not respond to any meds and last for weeks to months at a time (the one I am currently experiencing is in its fourth week!!!!!! The fibro is really acting up and now my lungs are giving me grief due to the corn and cotton being harvested.
I feel like I have been eating everything in sight and almost anything that moves.... my cats are on high alert at all times!!! heheheheh But it is just gobble, gobble, gobble!!! I am even waking up to eat and that is sooooo not like me. So, as I said, here we go again--- have patience with me, I am determined to get this right-- it is just taking me several attempts at it. You know the old saying, "if at first you don't succeed, try, try again", well-- here I am try, try, trying again.