Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Okay, I might as well admit to something. I have a deep seeded need to see things done fairly. Oh, I know, I know, there is nothing fair about life. It's a crap shoot. But, inside the 4 walls of a classroom and in your immediate family things should be done fairly. At least with a symbolacne of fairness. Everyday I hear from student's "oh, so and so gets away with ??? but if I say even one word, I get in trouble, it isn't fair!" I listen and give advice and talk about personality differences and how to get along with others takes a willingness to give other people the benefit of a doubt.
So why when it is happening to me, can I not give myself that same little talk. I know why! It's because I was raised in a family that chose favorities and took sides. I was never the one selected. So once again when my family overlooks me and mine it is like peeling off a scab and watching that old wound come back to life and bleed. Why? You know I truely believe if I could pinpoint the reason why the unfairness, etc took/takes place maybe I could work on my reactions to it. But, it seems a futile point.
Okay....my rant for the day