Monday, September 15, 2008
I am taking a seminar, as part of my course, that is starting to open my eyes to what is taking place with my weight. Let's see if I can remember this right:
Our conscious mind perceives events as they happen to us -- things that happen to us, things that are said about us, perceptions that people have of who we are. These can be positive or negative events, and come from family, friends, teachers etc.; but in any case, they are relegated to the subconscious mind. It is in the subconscious mind that our image of ourselves is set -- negative or positive. When we put ourselves down, we do not do it on purpose; there is no point in people just saying, "don't be so hard on yourself." It doesn't work that way. I have known this part for a long time, but it is something I heard today that caused me to have an "ah-ha!" moment as far as sabotaging myself is concerned. I have always known that if I could figure out why I do it (gain weight immediately after losing a substantial amount), then I could stop the behavior.
Turns out there is a third part of the mind, the creative subconscious. It is this part that plays the role in sabotage. When the world around me (i.e. weight loss) does not agree with my perception of myself, the creative subconscious compensates by bringing me back to the "me" that I know and am familiar with. So....if I lose weight, and my subconscious mind tells me I am destined to be fat, the creative subconscious will cause me to eat more until I have gained, thereby returning me to the "me" that my subconscious believes me to be. This is not done on a conscious level, and explains why, despite my determination not to overeat even when I am not hungry, and all my self-talk, I still seem to continue to eat until I have gained a few pounds. Then, I relax, and am able to start again.
In my next seminar day, I will learn how to reprogram the subconscious; the next step after that is to actually do it, and get that old subconscious to agree with what my mind tells me I am supposed to think of myself -- that I can do this, I can lose weight and become healthy and live a good long productive life.
More to follow as I learn it.