Friday, September 12, 2008
I have had a pretty good summer overall, did a lot of fun things-the beach, etc., lost around 15 or so pounds, so that's good, but I had to write down something that happened to me Wednesday. I chose to overeat like I used to earlier in the week-Mon., Tues., Wed.-using the excuse-and I fully understand that's all it was-that my sister was away on vacation so I'm home alone, I'll eat like I'm on vacation. Well, I found that I felt it went against my now usual pattern of eating sensibly during the week, so maybe it was a guilty conscience but I also became violently ill Wed. nite, and up came my food I had stuffed into myself earlier in the day. And while it certainly could've been food poisoning, I have been feeling "psychically" off for a few weeks now, I truly feel in my gut it was my body rejecting the hurt I'd caused it. Which has scared me to think that my mind is not totally in control, and if I stray and don't take care of it the way it's now used to me taking care of it, my body will become angry and let me know it's feelings. I wonder if this has ever happened to anyone else? To that, though, I, as many of us do, have a hard time staying within my calorie range during the weekends, so I spent some time on it and I've devised a new food plan that is within my calorie range for the weekend-Fri. nite, Sat. and Sun. Wish me luck, and I'll keep you posted on the other thing-I have my first Reiki session with my friend Lynn who does my massages-I'm really looking forward to it.