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Tuesday, September 09, 2008

As I travel on this journey I'm embarrassed to say that I should've been eating healthy and exercising perhaps it would've helped my husband in his struggles. I haven't been alone for quite some years and it's really hard ,my comfort at this time is my dog Pantry who sleeps with me . In my desperate need for companionship I've even posted with Personals on several sites and even though I say that I want responses I doubt that I would respond due to my low self esteem at this time in my life. Funny all my life I've joked that even though I was fat I was always able to have a man. After having the experience of my husband truly loving me I'm not willing to settle as I did before meeting my husband. I must admit I'm a little jealous even envious when I see couples cause I fear that I will never have someone to listen and hold me tight me I'm scared. Enough of this .....

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    Hello PADAMS3, I am sorry that you lost your husband and you are feeling lonely. Please try not to blame yourself for your husband's health problems. Adults make their own choices in life. The Sparkpeople website offers a lot of support & resources. I just joined myself in July. I also should have been eating right & excercising regularly over the past 40 or more years. Now that I am retired, I am really trying to improve my health by finally staying committed to weight loss & exercise. I know you can do it too, because of all the success stories I have read about on Sparkpeople. Don't give up! emoticon

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HAMSAGIRL 9/9/2008 11:01AM

    You are going in the right direction, keep it up! It gets easier one day at a time, but you just have to keep going:-)

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BUSBYBOTTOM 9/9/2008 10:27AM

    God still loves you and holds you tight!

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