Hello fellow Sparkies. I hope everyone had a good weekend! It was incredibly too hot. I thought with the 100+ degree days I was going to die! But it was also a learning experience for me. The entire weekend I ate whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted. And as you can tell from my blog title, I'm down a pound.
To explain, I did not eat a pile of junk food with abandon. Basically, I refused to let myself overly obsess about each and every calorie I was eating. I still tracked my food, but I tracked it AFTER the day was over. Instead of planning it the day before (like I usually do). All week long I've had cravings for doughnuts and Toblerone. Which is strange to me because I have never had a Toblerone in my life. I even went to the website to learn more about it. I was tired of just hearing "oh my gosh, it's like heaven in your mouth!" from people.
I didn't have a doughnut or a Toblerone this weekend. Once I gave myself the option, I just....really didn't feel like it. We went to my husband's family reunion on Saturday and I allowed myself to eat whatever I wanted there. That happened to include two big chocolate chip cookies and a brownie, in addition to the other food. They tasted pretty good! I still told myself if I wanted something later, i would have it and not obsess about the fact that I had already had some sweets. Later on, I really wasn't thinking about it.
Then yesterday I was nervous because family wanted us to go out to eat with them at a restaurant that should basically just be called "Don't come here unless you want a burger the size of your head, filled with lard." But then, I don't think that'd be a good marketing strategy for them! I ended up getting a side salad. That's it. They had some, I guess you call them, "meal-type salads." But none of them sounded good. I'd have to ask them to remove about 50 items before they would resemble something I would eat. What's wrong with adding more veggies to a salad? Nope, I had the options of bacon, ham, turkey, chicken, croutons...yuck, yuck, yuck, yuck, and not worth it (I'm a fan of soft bread, not crunchy). The only other options all made my stomach turn. I just can't handle the fat and the grease like I used to! I can't believe we used to eat out like 4-7 times a week!
The only hard part of the day was everyone mentioning how little I was eating. I don't really like my eating habits being a discussion topic! Has anyone else had to deal with this? I'm sure others have stories about the constant comments about their food, so I won't bore you with mine! It left me a little down, but even still I didn't feel like any of the sweets I'd been craving all week. Instead I came home, relaxed for a bit and tried a Healthy Choice frozen dinner.
It tasted good, but was soooo not enough food for the amount of calories it was! I usually eat the Weight Watcher frozen dinners and I pair them with a decent size salad. But I wanted a frozen dinner where I could eat just that. (That's the lazy part of me talking. You can lose almost 100 pounds and still be incredibly lazy, trust me!)
I thought the Healthy Choice would be a good...choice. Considering you get a main dish, a side dish, and a dessert. The only problem is that there is about 3 bites of each thing. I usually take 20-30 minutes to eat my meals. This frozen dinner? Took me about 7 minutes. I bought another one to try, but now I'm a little nervous that I'll be just as hungry after that one. But that's what I like about life, you can try new things. I'm so much more open to it now that I'm not being FORCED to, but that's an entirely different story.
Basically I just think it's funny that I lost a pound over the weekend. I didn't jump into a big pile of junk, but I ate more both days than I usually do and I didn't find time to hit the gym either day. Oh, and the other thing I did was I didn't measure anything. I KNOW! I can't believe I did it. But I've been on this road awhile so I was sort of able to eyeball the things I usually grab measuring cups for! I actually scooped ice cream directly from the carton into my dish instead of the measuring cup. Say WHAT?
I know I'm happier when I'm not obsessive. I already deal with OCD with other things, I don't need to be obsessed with my food! I'll be much happier in my healthy lifestyle, instead of the watch every single bite and don't allow yourself anything "bad" diet.