Wednesday, August 13, 2008
I'm seriously stumped. I know I keep saying over and over I'm finally getting back on track, but I'm just... not. I'm still in a drifting, aimless haze. I've been here since we got back from vacation and it's just not clearing up. I know what to do, but my drive to do it seems to be missing.
I want this, I do. And I can give you the reasons why. But it's just not enough to shake me out of this funk I'm in.
Strangely enough, I think it's giving up that 150 workouts shirt at Curves. When I was shooting for that shirt, I was giving it everything I had. But once I realized I was pushing it too much by going every day, I just fizzled out. I need that concrete motivator. I need something to strive for. Badly!
But in the meantime while I puzzle out what that is and what I want it to be, I really really have to get my groove back. Because it's gone. And I'm not making any progress. And it's starting to piss me off.