Starting Over and an added goal
Monday, August 11, 2008
My daughter goes to boarding school so is not here all the time. Well we started something per her request which I was glad of. That she come home for the entire summers. Well this has worked out well in the past, but this summer, it was terrible teens invades.
I spent more time running around chasing and fixing one crisis after another, that I completely neglected myself and lifemate. After taking last week for some downtime, I did a lot of thinking. As well as a fair share of beating myself up for allowing a 12 year old to run my life.
Granted I did lose a couple pounds, I think it is because I spent more time going than eating at my normal intervals. I am happy to see the weight down, but know deep within that it is a non healthy weight loss. I dont know if that makes sense to anyone else, hope so.
Anyway, I am getting myself back on track. And in doing so, am setting my goals small yet attainable. Yet there is one "goal" that I would like to seriously work on. I have started a plan of action for getting it accomplished. I am looking to quit smoking. Have smoked oh nigh on 25 years. And I want my health back as well as my quality of living I used to have.
I have attempted quitting before. Used the "help" products, gum, patches, etc. with no success. This time I am getting a timer and going to do the gradual cut back along with some other "help" products and combine that with meditation, aeromatheropy and relaxation techniques.
I am getting closer to 40 every waking day. My Dad is 82 and more active than most people. I want to be like that at his age. And I cant do it unless I get control of my life and whats happening in it. And smoking 2 - 3 packs a day is not helping.
So I figure Ill keep logs here to the progress of that and Here is to getting back control of my life.