Monday, August 11, 2008
My daughter goes to boarding school so is not here all the time. Well we started something per her request which I was glad of. That she come home for the entire summers. Well this has worked out well in the past, but this summer, it was terrible teens invades.
I spent more time running around chasing and fixing one crisis after another, that I completely neglected myself and lifemate. After taking last week for some downtime, I did a lot of thinking. As well as a fair share of beating myself up for allowing a 12 year old to run my life.
Granted I did lose a couple pounds, I think it is because I spent more time going than eating at my normal intervals. I am happy to see the weight down, but know deep within that it is a non healthy weight loss. I dont know if that makes sense to anyone else, hope so.
Anyway, I am getting myself back on track. And in doing so, am setting my goals small yet attainable. Yet there is one "goal" that I would like to seriously work on. I have started a plan of action for getting it accomplished. I am looking to quit smoking. Have smoked oh nigh on 25 years. And I want my health back as well as my quality of living I used to have.
I have attempted quitting before. Used the "help" products, gum, patches, etc. with no success. This time I am getting a timer and going to do the gradual cut back along with some other "help" products and combine that with meditation, aeromatheropy and relaxation techniques.
I am getting closer to 40 every waking day. My Dad is 82 and more active than most people. I want to be like that at his age. And I cant do it unless I get control of my life and whats happening in it. And smoking 2 - 3 packs a day is not helping.
So I figure Ill keep logs here to the progress of that and Here is to getting back control of my life.