Two HUGE hurdles conquered...at least this time!
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Huge Hurdle Number 1 for this weekend: So last night we went out to eat as a family. And where did we go? Where we always go of course! Golden Corral, home of the absolute BEST country and steak buffet around these parts!
I was nervous going into it. Waaayyy nervous. Me and Golden Corral go way back in my dieting history. The last time I did Weight Watchers, several years ago, I fell off the wagon and was never able to get back on mostly due to a buffet meal at GC. And it was supposed to have been my REWARD MEAL for a job well-done and several pounds lost after a month with WW!! It was NOT a pretty sight. I ate until I was sick. LITERALLY. After that lil episode, I decided that I COULD NOT and WOULD NOT "deprive" myself of food...my fave foods and lots of em... EVER AGAIN. And that was that.
So from the moment we decided yesterday to go there for supper, I was a lil scared. Okay...I was a LOT scared. But I know that I can't hide from restaurants, and buffets in particular, forever. So I decided that I needed a plan ahead of time. I have SUCH a HUGE problem with quantity. I started trying to think of what I could eat there...and eat LOTS of it...and not feel jealous of everyone else and deprived of great food joy. So, I made pre-planned what I could have.
And...drum roll please...I STUCK TO IT!! I started with a salad. It was sizeable, but it was 95% greens with a little parm cheese, egg, fresh mushrooms, grilled chicken, and Thousand Island dressing. It was great! And I was actually pretty satisfied afterward. But I couldn't go to GC without and leave without some of their awesome steak. So I had a lean piece, approx 6 oz. I also had some steamed broccoli, lima beans, and a small piece of baked fish. I did have a moment of weakness where a roll jumped into my hands and begged to be put out of its misery. Who am I to deny such a request?? For dessert, I had fresh strawberries dipped in a tiny bit of chocolate.
Now..I know this is a lot of food. But I tried to choose good quality. And if you had seen how I used to eat there...well let's just say that it's far better left unseen.
Today was Huge Hurdle Number Two for this weekend. We go every Sunday to my dear mother-in-law's for lunch. She is a great cook! And she cooks all my old country faves...rice n gravy, chicken n dumplings, dressing, roast, fried chicken, biscuits, etc. And I usually end up so full that I can do nothing else for the rest of the day except lie around. Well, today I did GREAT! I had 2 little barbecue chicken wings, some butterbeans, a SMALL portion of chicken n dumplings...but..yet again another darned roll came at me. And once again, I did away with the dirty little thing. (Can you tell that I have a MAJOR WEAKNESS FOR CARBS??!) But, I vowed that I would have no cake for dessert cuz of the roll so I didn't.
YAY! One weekend down!! Weekends can be potential traps for me as we don't really have routines on the weekends and we alwyas like to eat out. But surprisingly, I sit here Sunday eve and I do not feel ravenous, bitter, angry, deprived, mad, jealous or any of those other feelings that I often get when I am "changing the way I eat". (I'm trying to completely STOP using that nasty lil word that begins with a "D" because what I am actually doing is learning to eat like a NORMAL person. I am NOT dieting. You "diet" to lose a few lbs. I am eating to MAINTAIN.)
So. There. I know I am long-winded. But writing this helps me so I will try to keep it up for myself. If youtake time to read it GREAT! You can struggle along with me!! LOL!