Yup, I've been anti-social lately. I don't particularly know why. I've just been super busy. However, when I mention that and people ask what I've been up to, I can never really think of anything to say.
I've always been really comfortable just hanging out with myself. I don't really need a social scene. I never did have a group that I belonged to in high school. I was friends (aquaintances maybe?) with lots of people. But I was never in an actual group. I was friends with people on dance team, but I wasn't on it. I was friends with people in choir and band, but I wasn't in those either. I was on the newspaper staff, and I did talk to people there. But I didn't have a reason to go to the late nights, so I never did. I was friends with random people, but most of them weren't friends with one another. So I guess I'm just not used to hanging out with a group of people. I seem to be more of a one-on-one type person.
So my days tend to fill up with errands, chores, the gym, church activities, sparkpeople, myspace, youtube, and attempting to keep in touch with family and friends. But I've been really bad about that last one! There's a lot of everyone else, and very little of me. I'm also attempting to read Barbara Walters' memoir Audition. If I think about it, it's not even that long of a book, I don't think it quite gets to 600 pages. But I'm also reading four other books (as is usual of me). But since I got the book from the library I always feel like there is a ton of pressure to read it quickly. Especially since I sit on the waiting list for most of the books I check out. There are always a billion people in line ahead of me, and a billion people behind me. So I tend to try and read them as quickly as possible. So if I'm not online, at the gym, or at church, I'm probably reading.
I guess it's because social events tend to drain me of all my energy. Small talk is particularly EXCRUCIATING. I usually have to have some sort of preparation before I put myself through that. But since summer hit, it's been one thing after another. In fact this last weekend was the first (and last!) time all summer that we had absolutely nothing to do. Then, of course, both Aubrey and I ended up getting sick. It was nice actually because we spent practically three whole days laying in bed and watching movies together. Talk about a zero pressure situation. Just getting to spend some quality time with my husband, even if he was in pain and I felt lightheaded and dizzy the whole time. We watched movies I haven't even thought about in years!
I guess this blog is an attempt to apologize to anyone who has wanted to talk, but I haven't had the time. To anyone who doesn't hear from me often enough, to anyone who wonders why I'm even friends with them here if I'm never going to be good at staying in touch with them. I love you all! But shhh, just let me finish this chapter.