Thursday, July 24, 2008
So today is another day moving forward and making progress. I'm in week six and because I feel like I've dropped some pounds and people have started to notice that I'm being more lenient on what and how much I am eating. That needs to change or I will put that weight right back on. It's hard because I have so many friends who want to "go out for drinks" or "have dinner" and when I hear them say that it translates in my brain to "ruin my life" "sabotage my hard work". I have always had this very black and white thinking which has been troublesome because it is that perfectionist mentality that if I don't do it 100 percent and accurately I might as well give up. I am learning how to fight off that behavior and be patient and tell myself, ok so you ate more than you should,now is the time to stop, don't eat your mistakes. A friend of mine is making me dinner tonight and he cooks pretty healthy food so I should be alright. Just going to do my best. I will not settle when it comes to be being the very best version of me I can be (inside and out) , I look at it this way- there are enough people in the world who may not like you, why should you be one of them?! I am happy with my quest for self improvement, and very much proud of my efforts. YOU SHOULD BE PROUD OF YOURS TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!