Monday, July 21, 2008
I am a patchwork quilt. Lovely and worn.
I need to lose weight from my heart before I can lose weight from my body.
For me, that means putting all the cards on the table. I love myself but I have been hurt by people's judgement of me. Getting older and finding friends who have accepted me unconditionally has mellowed the pain. I searched on here for groups I could talk to about things and got frustrated because I felt like I needed so many groups to talk about the many parts of my life. There is not one part of me that is more important than the others, but today for some reason I am embrasing parts that are not often seen. I am so grateful for my experiences and who they have made me into. Mostly I am grateful for the wonderful people who have shown me love from different points of view. I have several sides.
Today is a day of meditation. A day of introspection. A day of honesty. I am happy with myself. I accept myself today. I like myself today.
So about the weight. It represents all the negative energy in me. I don't need it. I don't need excess food. I don't need excess fat or refined sugar or flour. My heart can be clean and pure and all these parts of me will remain good and strong. They make me glow.
I feel complex. I feel interesting.
My life is about Love. My mission is about Love.
God is powerful in my life.