Sunday, July 20, 2008
One of my all time favorite movies is Fried Green Tomatoes. The idea that common sense is not that common and sometimes what needs to be said is not politically correct. I am sitting here thinking that I am, in many ways, like Evelyn - as far as body image goes. She knew she wasn't happy about what she looked like but was doing all the wrong things. She still ate horribly, took all sorts of "enrichment" classes in order to feel better or sexier, and basically not doing what needed to be done. Then came Ninny who said the things that needed to be said, whether about the past or what Evelyn should or should not be doing. I don't have a Ninny to call it like it is. Instead, I have that voice inside that says enough is enough. No more mental masturbation. Get off the pot and do it now!
After butchering and processing some of my turkeys and chickens yesterday, I feel more capable than I have in a long time. Don't get me wrong, I have suceeded in most things I do. But there is a primal feeling of .....how to put it....mastery of my life in knowing that I raised these birds from chicks and brought them full circle. That if I can do it with them, I can do it with me. I can go full cicle with me and not stay in this place of disgust.
Evelyn starts the movie with the saying that she is too old to be young and too young to be old. By the end of the movie, her saying has become TAWANDA. Yesterday, I had my TAWANDA moment and I, too, am to old to be young and too young to be old. So, it is time to go out there and be what I am inside.