Monday, July 14, 2008
I feel disgusting! I have not been tracking my food- and so I have been PIGGING out! YUCK! I got really sick this morning (I think it was from garlic fries and someone not wahing their hands! YUCK!) that I ate last night! The whole time I am throwing up I am thinking, you shouldn't be eating that stuff anyways so you deserve that and how crazy is that! ANYWAYS! I will admit it I am very dysfunctional in my thinking! I have decided I want to go back to eating "clean" food. No sugar, no whit flour and other than whole grain pitas- no processed foods! I went to the grocery store and prepared! I hate feeling this way. I saw my friends I have not seen in 30 pounds... I was embarrassed- they never would judge me... it is me judging myself! I need to be positive and believe that I can do this!
Here's to day 1..... again!