Thursday, June 26, 2008
So, I haven´t been very good recently about keeping up with my SP details. ´m not inputting my calories or even really participating in my groups which I love.
It´s because I´m struggling with two main themes here in my life...weight loss vs. acceptance of what is.
It feels to me that when I focus on the weight loss aspect of this journey that i´m not actually loving myself as I am NOW. I´ve always struggled with loving myself, feeling worthy enough, feeling attractive enough, etc. I think this is so important. I need to accept who I am NOW not who I may or may not be in one month or six months time. I need to love my body NOW not what it may or may not look like minus 10 or 20 or 30 pounds.
Maybe this goes hand in hand and i´m not seeing the bigger picture. Maybe when I truly feel love for my body as it is right now i´ll be less likely to binge eat and i´ll be more likely to eat the kinds of foods that make my body FEEL good.
But i´m tired of waiting for goal weight or whatever other point in the future to start feeling ok with myself.
So here´s to Day One of treating myself like the goddess that I truly am ;)