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Monday, June 23, 2008

This past week, I felt something I have NEVER felt in 33 years. I felt pretty. Something else happened, I didn't care what others thought.

I have NEVER felt comfortable in my skin. Between an unhealthy diet, and 101 insecurities, I was just... here. I never felt I belong.

I was something I never have been, this past weekend. I was spontaneous. I actually got dress with ease and eased out of the door. I didn't talk myself out of going out. It's something so small people take for grated. I felt GREAT! I didn't feel like I was pulling teeth.

Something else happened. People listened to me talk. A few times this weekend, I had the floor. I didn't feel scared and it showed. My words flowed out as if they were practiced. I didn't stumble. And all eyes were on me. I know it's because I'm a few size smaller. My mom keeps making this statement, " I never saw you so happy" I tell her, the same things that were on my mind 4 months ago, are still on it. I kept trying to down play it, because I hate to believe I was so "miserable" and people thought this was "me" I told her it's not my "happiness" it's the weight loss and people eyes. It's true people pay more attention to pretty things. So they assume I am "happy"; Which I am now, sans my ex, LMAO.

I did something I never done in NYC. I wore my bare arms and back out. I felt so good and confident. I glowed. I got so many compliments. The first time in my life I accepted them and said thank you without breaking eye contact or downing myself as a response.

Something happened this weekend, I forgot about my ex. I can care less if he comes back or not. I am now opening myself up to meet someone. I thought this would be one of the hardest things to do. But all I have to do is keep feeling good about myself and it would come to me. I JUST figured this out, this past weekend.

Something happened this past weekend. I felt pretty.

emoticonThe sun is finally shining on me.
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  • LAYERS99
    I LUV IT!!!!!! you go girl!
    3519 days ago
    Keep Shining Girl, You look great, can't wait to bask in the glow with you! emoticon
    3519 days ago
    Not only do you feel pretty you look gorgeous. Congraulations on all your success done girl of the day.
    3519 days ago
    I am smiling and happy for both of us, because you reminded of the power of believing in yourself.

    Thank you for sharing a private fear and harder times. I am looking forward to watching your progress and celebrate your victory!

    Be well,
    Ali in Ohio
    3519 days ago
    emoticon That is so amazing. I'm so excited for you. I too am a lot like you WERE, very uncomfortable with myself and afraid of what others thought. I think that it's wonderful that you found the real you and let it SHINE for everyone around to see. emoticon and keep on shining girl!
    3533 days ago
  • U62PHILO
    It is amazing how taking care of our bodies spills into every aspect of our lives.

    3533 days ago
  • LILLIAN364
    Self-confidence is such a wonderful thing. It cost nothing, but means so much. Love yourself.
    3533 days ago
    Hey Beautiful woman!!!
    Its so great that you are allowing yourself to be aware of your beauty!! Don't ever forget how beautiful you are...Stay confident and keep goin at it. I am so glad that things are going so well for you. Don't let down keep it up!
    3533 days ago
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