Monday, June 23, 2008
So, I have been off track for almost a month now. I had friends visiting me the end of May, and let myself get out of my routine. And I have just not tried hard enough to get back in it. I have not been losing the weight I want and even worse, I can feel the loss in stamina and energy. That just sucks. I have been feeling sorry for myself for the last week that I feel bloated and gross and tired and just plain ugly. Well d@mmit, I'm done feeling sorry for myself. It's my own stinkin' fault. No more excuses, no more whining, just get back on that d@mn stubborn mule (I don't even deserve a horse to get back on right now) and MAKE IT WORK!
So I went to see my trainer on Saturday (ouch my butt is killing me from the glute exercises), and I booked a weekly session with her for the next month. Also, I signed up for more classes (Zumba and Pilates Reformer) and I am getting together a workout schedule for myself. I HAVE to do this. I am not getting any younger and being fat is no longer an option. I want to be skinny, of course, but more so than ever I just want to feel better. I was feeling better until I get off track.
I think it's funny (well, maybe just to me) that I have avoided logging on to SP while I was having my pity party for one. I just didn't want to face anyone when I knew I was so far off track. How narcissitic is that?!?! No more of that, I'm owning up to everything from now on, and hopefully I only have good things to report!