Sunday, June 22, 2008
PLEASE DON'T READ THIS BLOG ENTRY - IT IS NEGATIVE AND NO ONE OUT THERE IN SPARK WORLD NEEDS NEGATIVITY, JUST POSITIVE ENCOURAGEMENT TO REACH THEIR GOALS.
If I would have kept a diary this last 18 years of my marriage I probably would have left my husband a long time ago. I am sad today because I feel betrayed by my husband, who is supposed to be my earthly closest friend. There's no denying it or making excuses for him but I found out that he has been watching pornography on the internet. He always stays up late at night watching TV. Although my husband obviously has so many wonderful qualities, he has a mean streak of which I can make a list a mile long. One time he was mad at me and to upset me he typed something bad on the keyboard and a porn site came up, BUT IT WAS IN FRONT OF MY CHILDREN. He was trying to get a reaction out of me. If I am ever sad because of some argument he feels no sympathy. He's not the type that feels sorry for a crying woman. He just says to get over it. Now regarding this porn he says that something did pop up on the computer one time but he clicked it off right away. I checked the computer's history and I found FOUR different links to pornography. I've been using the computer for years and for some reason I've never accidentally had a porn site come up. I think his mind is going to the dogs because of spiritual weakness and possibly because of his drinking problem. (he drinks probably 6 beer a day on average).