6.20.08 - Exercise & Grief
Friday, June 20, 2008
I haven't written in some time, having gone through my mom's sudden illness and death. As if that wasn't enough, I've had to deal with the cemetary for the past 6 weeks because they buried my mom in the wrong plot - not even close to the plots she had purchased. It's the weirdest thing being at a funeral mumbling why are we in this location when we should be way over there!
I spoke to attorneys who told me that I didn't have a case - basically, it was a mistake and that the cemetery didn't have to do anything since the plot they buried her in was available. So for the past 6 weeks I've been grieving daughter and family spokesperson to get this settled. The issue that really fueled my jets was that the morning of the funeral they requested that I pay for the grave opening - in cash!! So I had to bring $800 cash with me to the funeral. Luckily I happened to have the money because I'm saving for my September vacation to China, and had the money to exchange before I leave. Hopefully this issue will come to a close tomorrow. I can't believe the cemetery gave me such a hard time, and I really can't believe I couldn't get an attorney to intervene. Talk about pain and suffering! And the thing is that we knew it was the wrong plot as soon as the car stopped - you see, I was with my mom when she purchased the plots! LOL On a lighter note, thank goodness I'm a Scorpio and could handle the legal issue! I always thought I'd make a good lawyer!
So where does exercise come in? More importantly, where do you come in?? I've been stressed, to the max. I've shielded my dad from the details by telling him that "I'm still waiting for them to get back to me". While my eating has been focused (what a surprise!), my energy has been drained. My head throbs (which scares the heck out of me cause I have a brain aneurysm) and the good news is that my blood pressure has been holding at 110/70. So I've been walking - either WATP or outside. Since the weather has been pleasant, I've taken to the streets. I come home feeling refreshed and invigorated. While walking I stay in tune with nature, watch traffic go by, greet fellow walkers, dogs, even squirrels, and listen for any message I might be getting while out and about. While part of me is angry that I've had to deal with this issue, there's the bigger part that knows that if it wasn't for my focus, thanks to SparkPeople, my personal results would have been disasterous. I know if I didn't have this site to log onto I would have eaten my way through this which, as we all know, would have compounded the issue. And while I might not have logged in as much as I wanted to and not recorded every morsel, when I was out and about and was tempted to soothe my feelings with food, I remembered I had a place to be accountable to and I just couldn't let myself or my virtual partners down.