Ugh! It´s out of control...
Monday, June 16, 2008
So a few days back, I quit my raw food challenge. It was a rash decision, spur of the moment, and I was almost finished anyway.
It was becoming a serious chore whereas before I was enjoying it a lot. Considering my issues with food, I thought ok, if it´s not feeling good, then don´t do it.
So what happened....about four days of total anarchy is what happened.
Not only haven´t I eaten well AT ALL, but I haven´t even been accountable for what ive eaten. Raw food is MUCH more food tracker friendly! :)
I think that really I HAVE to do raw foods because it´s the only way i´ve found to control myself, my portions, my habits, my binging, my hunger. If I can have a little of something then I take it, eat it and then promptly feel unsatisfies and eat more. It doesn´t feel good to feel so out of control.
My whole point of going back to cooked food was to have MORE control, and here I am feeling like a slave to my big fat tummy. UGH!