Friday, June 13, 2008
Not doing so good. Had one streak of 7 days and another of 12 but this last week I"ve binged 3 times. Dont know why. I'm frustrated at work but that is nothing unusual. I have a list of activities to do instead of night time eating but when the urge to eat hits I just ignore the list. On days when I'm not bingeing I think I'm also taking in too many calories. The only thing going right in my weight loss efforts is my exercise...but that is all being sabotaged by my eating. I have to change. I have had great successes in my life...quit smoking, quit drinking for 15 yrs, lost 30 pds Why did I have willpower then and absolutely none now? this is a good period of life for me. I only have to work 3 days a week. I have free time. I love my walks. I love the time to read. I love going to church. But there has to be more. My work is not fulfilling. But I get to volunteer at the humane society. Nothing seems to satisfy me. I've read so many self help books, so many spiritual books and the answers elude me. I guess I've just got to keep trying.