Friday, June 13, 2008
I am so pissed. I realize that I was never able to express anger as a child. It was totally against the rules in my house. I wasn't entitled. Now I feel like I am angry a lot of the time and I want to eat to avoid feeling it. I am so pissed at my husband for not helping. I work a 12 hour job and then come home and make dinner and play mommy as well as get all her stuff ready for the morning. Tuesday he has a doctors appointment and wants me to blow off my early morning so he doesn't have to get her ready and take her to school early. That means I would miss my workout and make me late for work and blow my afternoon off. He acts like I am being selfish about it. I am seething because he will act like it is no big deal but his tone was condescending and accusatory. I don't know if this is him being passive aggressive because I am the one bringing in the paycheck or if he really is this selfish and uncaring. I am going to try and sit with this and not eat through it.