Friday, May 30, 2008
I want to ask first to all my teams and fellow sparkers to forgive my selfishness.
I want to contribute again to the chats, challenges, and the requests for help.
But it seems since I've been gone I've been in my own world.
I don't socilaize often, and when I do I find myself extremely uncomfortable and jsut itchy everywhere.
Trying to come back to sparkpeople I noticed that I feel just as uncomfortable here as I do out there.
I wish I could be someone else, like Gandhi and Flea mixed together. But I'm not, I've stopped working on my self esteem and motivational issues and the progress that I've done is beginning to slowly untangle.
So I need this space to write of nothing else but myself. I also realize I need to begin contributing again, I am positive that restraining feeling of unfamiliarity will fade away again as soon as I jump in the water.
It's exactly like that, jumping in the cold lake, you hesitate to do it but once you're in it's so much fun.
Here's my personal goals I want to achieve this summer, I really have to get serious about this again.
1. Get my weight moving and in the right direction again.
2. Complete my half marathon training
3. Pay off the next credit card
4. Continue reading books
5. Spent most of my time outdoors
6. Self-esteem, let's get it going up again
What I am really proud of is all the books I've been reading :)
and all the biking I've been doing :)
and the running...... :I meh, I'm getting fitted for running shoes this weekend though!
I don't think I found what I was looking for...and the only artwork I managed to complete is a Flea sketch.