Tuesday, May 13, 2008
It's been a long time since I've been keeping to my program. I got 2 notes from my sp friends and that got me thinking how much I have missed being here.
I'm trying to not feel like a failure. I'm a perfectionist, and that's what gets me into these messes to begin with.
I've been eating mostly healthy foods but the only exercise I've gotten has been in the garden. I know that counts as something, but evidentially it's not enough.
I have gained some weight back - probably mostly from my bday week. We ate out constantly and I had a bday cake. Not a good combo for me.
I'm cooking most of my meals from scratch, including lunches with fresh veggies from the farmers market and my garden. So that should help, and now I have to get back into some exercise everyday. That's the hardest part for me.
So today I'm starting over. No more thinking about how I could have done it differently and feeling guilty and bad about myself. I'm going to give myself a clean slate and a do over. That alone is a huge change for me.
I'm committing to join the lesbian cafe challenge at the end of the month and to peek in on one of the teams right now for motivation. And to do some yoga tonight. Tomorrow I'll try to work out a schedule that I think I can stick to for now.
Thanks so much to ImaPickledBeet and Okiemel for helping me come back!