Monday, May 12, 2008
I am so angry at myself. Why do we sabotage ourselves? I feel am the QUEEN of this. I go so strong and do so well for a little while and then, WHAM....I completely crash. That happened this weekend. My baby turned "one" and we decided to have her party at my Mom's house. My entire family came and it was a grand affair. My Mom, the proud grandmother, pitched a tent, brought out the radio, coolers, and the DEEP FRYER!! They fried fish, made potatoe salad, and ordered pizza for the kids. My baby does not like cake (a trait I hope she keeps), so I ordered her a cookie cake and I bought ice cream cups (portion control sizes). We had a ball. But I lost full control. Not only did I loose control at the party, but the whole weekend!!! I had Wendy's, Krsytal's, McDonald's and Cinnabons.....WHY?!!! What is wrong with me? I know better! I know my struggle. It is so hard for me to pick myself up today. One day of the slips I can do, put the whole weekend....I can't get past it. I did teach my class today and doing well today. But I feel that I need to do more to "undo" the weekend. Any thoughts??