Sunday, May 11, 2008
I am having mixed feelings today. I got a wonderful call from Gary's daughter wishing me a Happy Mothers Day, also received a beautiful card from them.
Gary sends me a card from leah too( she is a 6 yrs Lab)
May seems to be a difficult month for me. A lot of things happen to me in the month of May that I find at times hard to deal with.
Today I was feeling nervous and moody. I'm trying to accept my feeling and deal with them, not turn to food to comfort me. Its not always easy. I'm glad my spark friends are here for me when ever I need them. I'm hoping that having this out let will help me learn to cope with my feeling and not eat to cope.
I think if we can learn to deal with fells frustrations disappointment anger and happiness with out turning to food so that we will be able to maintain our weight loss.
I'm trying to learn to not use the entitlement excuse for eating junk food. You know what I mean; I have a good day so i deserve that twinkie, or I had a terrible day I deserve to have ice cream or what ever junk food you want . I think we try to justify why its okay to eat junk food.
My new thoughts are, I deserve to be healthy. I deserve to eat healthy food. I deserve to exercise my body everyday. I deserve to be happy and healthy no matter what has happen to me or what will happen to me.
I'm entitled to be as strong healthy and happy as I am will to be, no matter what.
Lets be healthy and happy together.