Saturday, May 10, 2008
i had my long run today, and it was great! it didn't feel so great at the time, but i finished and finished strong. i also started strong and stayed strong in the middle :) i upped the ante a little bit by pushing myself at the start. i ran my first two miles in 10 minutes each instead of 11. by mile 3, i had to slow down to my originally intended pace, but i was able to hold it till the end. i semi-sprinted for the last 0.4 miles, and was glad i did.
people talk a lot about the fabled "runner's high". i don't think i really get it....at least, not in the same way. much of my run is spent thinking that i'm not really sure i can keep going. i set little goals for myself, like making it to a tree stump 100 yards away, or keeping my pace until the end of a song. my mental talk isn't exactly negative, but it's certainly not high. i do sometimes get to a point where i start thinking "yes! i can do this!" and maybe the relief associated with that could be considered a runner's high. i don't know.
i do know that for several hours after i finish running, sometimes even a day or two, i feel effin' awesome. i feel thinner, more energetic, more flexible, happier and much more positive. even if my run was really hard or i didn't make my time goals or distance goals, i still get my endorphins later. i love it! i'll take hours of happiness over a few minutes' high any day of the week. i've always had to fight hard for my happiness, so an hours' plodding seems like a good trade to me.
i finally edged the scale down to 205.0 yesterday. my weight has actually been fluctuating a lot in the past month or two, sometimes creeping all the way back up to 210. i'm glad that my renewed efforts over the past week have really paid off. i've built up some momentum now, which should help me get through my next work marathon.
tonight: finish out a great day in a great way: stay positive, eat the tasty food i brought with me (and only that!).
tomorrow: my rest day and my official weigh in day. i may jump rope, though, since i didn't yesterday.
every day: eyes on the prize!