Living and Learning...to Love ME!
Friday, May 09, 2008
Sometimes I wonder why it took so long to receive that "aha" moment. I've been struggling with my weight for most of my life. I can remember being at Girl Scouts and the girls were all hoppin' on the scale weighing themselves...I was last of course..LOL and I weighed the most. No one made a big fuss but I knew I was different.
When I was twelve my mom dressed me in polyester pants and old lady tops. Her options were limited for an obese child I guess. So when I got into high school I start buying my own clothes. In high school I was on the swim team and took off about 40 pounds swimming a mile a day. I felt good and strong. When I graduated..I didn't keep up with swimming.
So I guess this is my fat history lesson huh? So I was the typical fat girl. Bubbly, giggly, happy all the time on the outside...but in the inside..I always wished I was smaller. I always had a irregular menstrual cycle, which my mom wasn't educated on PCOS...so time just went flying by.
I can remember when my menstrual cycle used to come three to four times a year. When I was a teen this was AWESOME!!..and some of my friends were envious of me...lol Then as the years progressed I would have more and more accidents. I would never know when my period was coming. I would have "blood attacks" where blood would just pour out of me. It was ridiculous. There was a time when I didn't have insurance so this was a problem that has went untreated until very recently.
NOWADAYS...So now I'm ready..I'm DONE!! This is something new because I was never ready before..I never tried to lose weight. I never put any effort into losing. But I know that being on SP, going to Curves and basically being mentally ready is the key. I look at the Spark Pages and there are times when I am in AWE. I see where people started..and see how far they have come.. I want to be encouraging like this for people who start after me.....Thank you all for having the courage not to be the "fat" girl/guy any longer. You all have a new cheerleader.