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Friday, May 09, 2008

Sometimes I wonder why it took so long to receive that "aha" moment. I've been struggling with my weight for most of my life. I can remember being at Girl Scouts and the girls were all hoppin' on the scale weighing themselves...I was last of course..LOL and I weighed the most. No one made a big fuss but I knew I was different.

When I was twelve my mom dressed me in polyester pants and old lady tops. Her options were limited for an obese child I guess. So when I got into high school I start buying my own clothes. In high school I was on the swim team and took off about 40 pounds swimming a mile a day. I felt good and strong. When I graduated..I didn't keep up with swimming.

So I guess this is my fat history lesson huh? So I was the typical fat girl. Bubbly, giggly, happy all the time on the outside...but in the inside..I always wished I was smaller. I always had a irregular menstrual cycle, which my mom wasn't educated on time just went flying by.

I can remember when my menstrual cycle used to come three to four times a year. When I was a teen this was AWESOME!!..and some of my friends were envious of Then as the years progressed I would have more and more accidents. I would never know when my period was coming. I would have "blood attacks" where blood would just pour out of me. It was ridiculous. There was a time when I didn't have insurance so this was a problem that has went untreated until very recently.

NOWADAYS...So now I'm ready..I'm DONE!! This is something new because I was never ready before..I never tried to lose weight. I never put any effort into losing. But I know that being on SP, going to Curves and basically being mentally ready is the key. I look at the Spark Pages and there are times when I am in AWE. I see where people started..and see how far they have come.. I want to be encouraging like this for people who start after me.....Thank you all for having the courage not to be the "fat" girl/guy any longer. You all have a new cheerleader.

God bless
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  • EDEN30
    You do it. I know how you feel as far as struggling with weight. I was always the bigger girl in school. I agree it is nice to know that you are not alone and that others feel the same way and are going through the struggle as well. So don't give up and if you need to talk write me.
    3533 days ago
    I know exactly how you feel; I have PCOS but couldn't take the meds. I want you to be prepared that it is HARD to lose weight when you have PCSO so don't get discouraged. It will happen it just might be a little slower than you would like.

    If you ever want to talk about it just shoot me an email. We can help each other.

    I LOVE YOUR ATTITUDE! It is definitely positive and encouraging! Keep it up!

    3543 days ago
  • LILLIAN364
    We're here to encourage you. You will reach your goals. It will happen because you are done.
    3543 days ago
    Hey there!!

    Your blog sounds like me!! Being overweight, joining Curves, wanting to leave a leagacy of health and fitness for those that come after you... WOW... I totally get that!!

    My Dear Spark Sister, you can do it!! You can be anything you want, and you can acheive any dream that you set your mind to!

    There came a time that I had to believe in me, and when I did, I just soared!! And somewhere along this path, I kinda forgot that, until recently! I have begun to soar again!! I have learned to love me again... and I have learned that there is more to life than just watching it pass me by!!

    You can do this!! You are not alone in your effort or along your path!! You have so many people that are here to encourage you, support you and run that path with you!! And the legacy you leave, those that follow down that path after you, will be so thankful that you did it!!

    3544 days ago
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