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I won't give up

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

Ok, I know I have been away for a while, and honestly I’m not sure why. At first I stopped coming onto SP because I started writing down what I eat instead of putting it into the computer. I liked this better because it was always there in my hand. I just liked it better. I also think I stopped coming on because my search for a weight loss buddy has failed. I had a few, then they would trail away, I try to email but get no response. I can’t blame them, how can I expect them to do what I can’t; stay motivated. I was doing really well for a while too. My weight hasn’t changed at all. It seems permanently stuck on 157; wait that’s not true, my weight will gladly increase. I was working out 3-6 days a week, and my eating improved (it wasn’t fantastic, but better). And now my last entry in my food journal was a week ago and I took a 7 day work out vacation. I also have been relaxed in my eating and I binged yesterday after work on a bag of Combos and M&Ms. I did work out when I got home, mostly because I didn’t want to feel like a blimp for the rest of the night.
Now, 2 days before my cruise vacation and I couldn’t keep my weight loss efforts long enough to see some difference in my body. I didn’t care if the scale moved, just that I fit into my clothes better. A part of me wants to blame everyone and everything else for my failings, but I know better. I know that if I truly wanted to lose weight I would. I know that if I really tried, I put 110% into my goals I would do it. But then I ask the question, why haven’t I? I want this so bad it hurts, but I just can’t seem to make the changes.
So what propertied me to start on my blog on SP again? That email that was sent out about those 5% of people who lose weight and keep it off. I realized that there are things on that list that I don’t do, and one is I feel a lack of support. I don’t feel accountable. I have said this from the start, I need a buddy. So I am going try again and search for a weight loss buddy to keep me accountable. To email me everyday and we can help each other in our weight loss goals.
So here I go…… again.
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  • GIRLINMOTION
    Heather if you keep active on this site, by blogging, posting on your teams and joining some challenges that might be part of the motivation you need. Personally I find if I am active and reply to other peoples blogs, post and encouraging others it keeps me motivated to keep myself going. Give it a try, what do you have to lose besides the weight you so much want to lose??? You can do this.

    Sonia
    3183 days ago
  • LS6060
    I was listening to the jillian michael's radio podcast on my way home yesterday and on my way in this morning. One of the episodes was with Ali from the biggest loser and it really sunk in the things she was saying. She was so inspiring. She kept saying to set yourself up to win. If you want some inspiration I would suggest listening to it. Its on KFI.com
    I will sparkmail you my email address. I can't guarantee I can be there for you each day but I will strive to. I would love to have someone to cheer me on and that I can cheer on.
    3184 days ago
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