Really tough and not getting better
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
I don't know where to start. I guess that'll be Sunday when I got a call from one of my APs and good friend informing me that a colleague had died. Not just any teacher in a school of 100+ teachers, but a teacher in our department, who sat in a desk across from me in the office. talk about blown away. He was the healthies person I've ever known, for cryin' out loud. 60+ years old but a marathon runner, adventure biker, clean eater. And now he's dead, running a marathon, of a pulmonary embolism. Our department, as always, has pulled together and are trying to support each other. 4 of us have taken on his classes (yes, that's me) and are not only grieving, but now we're overwhelmed with an extra class. 3 of us inherited classes that are out of control (that's me again) and trying to figure out how to give those students what they need in the last 3 weeks.
Needless to say, I'm overwhelmed. The funeral is Thursday. My Wednesdays and Fridays are now all-day teaching, no down time. I'm not exercising. I'm not eating well. I'm not sleeping. I'm not even drinking (water) as our water cooler is empty, no one has delivered our water yet, and I forgot to bring some from home. I skipped a doctor's appointment today because I just kept driving and driving until about 5 miles past my turn I realized that I'd missed my turn. At that point I called my doctor's office and asked to re-schedule, even though I could have made it still only about 5 mintues late. It was just too much.
I'm not logging right now - no time. This is probably my last blog until Memorial Day weekend, when school gets out. I'm gaining weight. I've got to promise myself that I'll at least get in 30 minutes of physical activity. No matter what. I did get on the treadmill this afternoon, but couldn't run as far as I'd been running. But at least it was something. I've got to remember that although I use food - it doesn't ever make things better. Two and a half weeks. Then I'm in the clear. Two and a half weeks. i can do it. i can do it