Thursday, April 24, 2008
I keep hearing the song "I fought the law and the law won" in my head, but for me its "I fought the cookies and the cookies won". Since beginning my SP journey I have been able to change a lot of my habits and resist temptation. Especially when it came to sugar, which was previously my weakness. Until now.....I made homemade chocolate chip cookies last night and instead of enjoying one or two and being satisfied I went into my old habits and just kept eating them all night long. I felt so gross after and was reminded of how often I used to do this. At first I was really disheartened about it, but then I realised that although I have made a lot of progess, there are many challenges that lie ahead. What I hope to learn from this episode is to realise that old habits are hard to break and sometimes its just easier to fall back on the familiar. Its safe and its comfortable. But the long term effects are anything but desirable. The struggle between long term goals and short term satisfaction will always be present. Sometimes the instant gratification will win, but only the battle and not the war. Its O.K. to forgive myself, realise I'm human and just try to do better next time. I often talk to my kids about a pretend reset button. When something has gone wrong, you think about what happened, how you could prevent it in the future and then press the reset button. Give yourself a fresh start and a chance to do better next time. Here I go.....RESET!