Wednesday, April 23, 2008
It is amazing the amount of time I spend thinking about my weight...what I can do to change it, what I have done to gain it. I have incredible thoughts and ideas in my head. In my mind I am always eating right, drinking water, and working out on regular basis.
But then reality strikes. My favorite pants are uncomfortable, I hate seeing myself in pictures, and my wonderful summer tank tops show off my ever waving arms. I wonder how I got here, and how I can get back. It could be as simple as actually participating in my mind's reality, but that requires committment. And even my husband knows how hard that is for me.
But, with all that said, I am committing. Re-committing, and remembering that I am worth the time it takes to take care of me. I don't want to say it is about making me a better person, but there really is a part of me that likes me better when I do take care of me, because I look better, I feel better and that alone makes me better.
So I am done with the 'I'm too tired', or 'I'll do it later', and am replacing it with 'If not now, when', 'It's not an option' and most importantly in the immortal words of Yoda, "Try not. Do or Do Not, there is no Try.'