Wednesday, April 16, 2008
I am noticing how much the scale is affecting me, lately. I know itís suggested that I weigh myself once a week but Iím lucky if I can stick to once a day. The ones later in the day donít have an affect on me, good or bad, but I am noticing that my mood and thoughts seem to obsess with how much Iíve lost.
Many days itís a good thing. I think to myself ďI can tell people I lost (fill in number) poundsĒ. Today I didnít go to the gym because Iím going to take a long walk after work. I use the scale there to have my official weight loss because I feel itís not as temperamental as my home one. So I step on my home one for a general gauge and I lost 1.5 pounds from yesterday. My thoughts all day have beenÖ
I wish I would have gone to the gym.
I wonder if itís true or if itís proportional to the gym scale.
Can I tell people I lost 31.5 pounds now? Or could it be 32?
In the big reality of thingsÖa pound or two is not that big of deal. Thatís the other thoughts I have had today. I am quite lucky that I havenít really gained any weight (one pound at the most) but do get a little down (not totally, thank God) if I am the same weight a few days in a row.
Yesterday I thought I would have a goal of only weighing in every Tuesday. Then reward myself with something in two weeks. One would think that this would be an easy goalÖbut itís not. I think itís harder than sticking to 1200-1500 calories a day. Heck, I even obsessed for two days on whether I should write about it thinking if I do, then Iíll have to do something about it. Maybe I should start out small and reward for every other day or something.
OK, now Iím just rambling!!!
I know Iím doing well. In addition to over 30 pounds Iíve also lost over 15 inches so I do look for other signs of progress, too. Maybe itís not so bad that I weigh daily.